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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 23:57

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

What can you do if you are a full-grown adult, but never experienced being a child?

This is soul school!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Why did i forgive my father ?

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When she asked me how she looked .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Why is my ex still keeping in touch with me even though she dumped me?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

How can I stop drinking?

She found it foreign!.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Why do boobs of some girls bounce when they walk?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I couldn’t, believe it.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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I was seconnd youngest,

Who then, do I blame.?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

So whats the point in blame.

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I will be 64.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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And i lived it daily.

She married twice! .

But it wasn’t much.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I waited trembling.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Comes on , in middle age.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

(And it was in our own minds.)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My family never makes their pension either.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Ive learnt so much.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We all went to grammer schools

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But, we were locked up after school.

I was 9 years of age.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I have no regrets .

I said to her

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But ive been too sick for many years..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Put me off passion for life!!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She wouldn,t have been !

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was scared of men, in general

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She loved him until the end.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He knew the spot.

I was very sick at this time too.

I write beautiful poetry .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

What did i know ?

I think the readers, may guess!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We were not on the streets..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im still living with it.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

So, i spoilt her more .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Especially a lifetime of it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Would this be the day?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

One cannot live in the past .

She was in good health!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I don,t even have a pension.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My life is so biszare .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

It was going to be , some day.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I never cut or harmed myself..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

All the time i was locked up.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .