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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

15.06.2025 01:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

(And it was in our own minds.)

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I could never make a relationship work though!

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

This is soul school!.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Comes on , in middle age.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

All the time i was locked up.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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I was seconnd youngest,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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My life is so biszare .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I waited trembling.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Especially a lifetime of it.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I don,t even have a pension.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was very sick at this time too.

I have no regrets .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Who then, do I blame.?

She wouldn,t have been !

So, i spoilt her more .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was scared of men, in general

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She found it foreign!.

But, we were locked up after school.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

We all went to grammer schools

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I was 9 years of age.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My family never makes their pension either.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She married twice! .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Would this be the day?

We were not on the streets..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I write beautiful poetry .

I said to her

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why did i forgive my father ?

What did i know ?

One cannot live in the past .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Ive learnt so much.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Was to survive, this bastard.

Put me off passion for life!!

I will be 64.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And i lived it daily.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im still living with it.

It was going to be , some day.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was in good health!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But it wasn’t much.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She loved him until the end.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He knew the spot.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

So whats the point in blame.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.